Hadrian_Meister's blog

 So i don't know how long i intend to make this so I'll just start putting words onto my screen and see how it goes

i wanted to make this post about 4 days ago, about when my account officially turned one year old. I elected to wait a little bit longer because as you may have seen I've been invited to partake in the live show at wrestlefest Toronto and i wanted to add that in here and i wasn't going to spoil their fun. Going from where i was to where i am now has been a journey to say the least, I've had my ups, I've had my downs. Through it all i can honestly say that it's been nothing short of a whirlwind, there's been people that i messaged when i started that just ignored me to actually being fans of mine, which is always weird since i decided to jump in as a supporter so i see messages from 8 months ago that i sent that they very obviously don't remember. i hold nothing against these people since to be honest my profile was a skeleton at the beginning, i would have ignored me too (still love my description though)

i started this all on a whim when i moved out on my own about 2 years ago but a bit of context on the "start" of my fixation, I'm the person who had their gay awakening to WWE in the early 2000s (holla Basham Brothers) and didn't really know what to do with the feelings they gave me. I didn't understand that it wasn't just their bodies i was attracted to it was the fact that they always seemed to have someone stacking them on top of each other and planting their boot on them and i wanted to BE that guy, i remember finding older NRW videos on youtube (because they're THAT tame, lets me honest), following a guy from there to find UCW and realizing there were people out there acting out the fantasies i had in my head but for the world to see. I searched up the name of a certain guy from Delaware, who honestly if there was a Mt Rushmore of erotic gay wrestlers he would be on it, and found BGeast and from there it was all over, i knew what i wanted to see and i knew what i was into. years went by and i saw it all from Thundersarena to Muscle Boy Wrestling to the rise/fall of Can-am and the (what feels like a) empire that Cameron Matthews created over at Wrestler4Hire. The things these companies have done and the doors they and some of the genius talent they've had have opened is nothing short of revolutionary (shoutout to Jonny Firestorm who will be the only other wrestler i name in this blog, he gave us so much) and that's not to downplay any other company or wrestler and what they've done as well it's just to list them all would be nothing short of impossible. i remember searching for a certain twink-ish (at the time) redhead from BGeast and finding watchfighters and the world opened up to me that these were individuals doing this for their own gain, at the time they were still just actors on a screen to me i never thought i would meet never mind get to know some of them. A certain large Viking-esq man from NYC was a favorite of mine and i remember seeing a link when i decided to check his "about" sections and suddenly i found myself here on Meetfighters

I never thought that when i made my profile it would be anything more than me being a guy who's profile aged and never saw any action that i would just lurk at pictures of guys but never meet them. my curiosity got the best of me however and i decided to meet up with a man with a blurred out face from Delaware and something just compelled me to drive an hour south...to a strangers house...change into a 25$ singlet i bought from amazon the week before...and throw this man around and suddenly decide to jerk him off. all of that sounds like the plot to an episode of "Dateline" but fate was funny that man, who if he reads this i guarantee KNOWS who he is, would be such a positive influence on my journey that the negative and even vile experiences I've had were just drowned out, a former BGeast superstar from NYC (who i didn't know was said star until i clocked his tattoo) gave me a text-based lashing about my faceless cargo short-clad profile picture and the complete lack of pictures otherwise and i took it to heart, my profile expanded, i got more pictures and the opponents just came FLOODING in, i made good friends with a certain train enthusiast down in the nations capital and he asked me when we met "what do you actually want from this?". i had an answer that i wanted to wrestle and befriend everyone i see, and maybe one day I'll cross a name off my list of "Fantasy Matches" and he said that i was going to go far because i knew what i wanted. oh god was he right

that "List of Fantasy Matches" was just that, a fantasy or so i thought, there were names on that list i never thought in a million years i would meet, never mind wrestle, never mind BEFRIEND. But here i am looking at my list of 

Said Viking-esq Hunky Giant from NYC
a spooky alternative wrestler from NYC
Said man from Delaware i followed to BGeast
a Cute stocky boy from the early days of MBW
a Superheel from MA that filmed prolifically for BGeast
a stocky former twink that wrestled for BGeast and Wrestler4hire
a Swedish Muscle giant
and a Floridian Muscleman who loves a good rescue

I've not only wrestled all these men but I've befriended them, i went from turning my nose at the idea of traveling more than 50 miles by car to flying out to Chicago, San Francisco, staying a week in NYC and becoming one of the people PLANNING wrestle fest NYC, Camping in the Poconos mountains and bonding with a certain short king who will be my friend for life. I never in my wildest would i think i would wrestle nearly 100 men in just the span of a year and now I'm flying again, this time to Canada to be one of the stars in a LIVE SHOW which i will be giving my all to since apparently i have fans now. i still need to rub the stars from my eyes sometimes when i see everything in my wake behind me and know that i have no intentions of stopping or even slowing down, i promised myself when i told that man from DC what i wanted that i would go get it, this community and this world changed my life and I'm so happy to be inspired by it to write this post a year after starting my journey, thank you all
-H. Meister