Blog de Dayim

Here i am, finally on my couch at home, holding my rib, some bruises  here and there, after almost 6 days of rolling around with guys.

With my 12-years-hiatus on this website, i considered myself as a newbie in the wrestling world. To have the opportunity to attend this kind of event so quickly after "coming back" was just awesome, and i was thrilling with excitement for the last 6-7 months. I'm used to do big techno festival, big fetish events with kinky stuff. But this, wrestling... it's almost like a secret garden, and i'm going there by myself.

The thirst for wrestling has always been lingering in my mind for all these years anyway. Been following many content creators wrestlers and chatting with them on a regular basis, telling them how it would be a dream to meet and fight them one day. And these past months, i've veen actively looking for wrestlers who were coming in Berlin, and we arranged some fights.

So i went to Berlin one day before the event and i was already having my first fight in private.. It was a bit surreal to meet guys in wrestling gear, to see airbnbs and hotel rooms converted into mats or wrestling arena... But i had the time on my life, it was like some kind a fantasy come true. Nor that i am the strongest person or the most skilled one, but i liked every second, every groan, every holds, every speedo, socks, boots..

Then came the open mat and the qualgeist party... although i had some really interesting fights with lovely (and hot) guys. I'm not confident enough to wrestle properly in front of people. Wrestling against people who are 10 times stronger and experienced than me with a crowd watching, sometime the fights consisted only of me trying to escape holds and handle the pain without any chance to fight back... and i was worrying about what kind of "show" i was giving to people, sure i looked rubbish to myself during these fights but i was worrying about people watching thinking the same and being seen as a joke. But anyway, all sweaty and messy i was after, can't remember who asked me after how i felt after the fight, and i answered " i feel alive, loved it". So...

What i would mostly talk about is the social aspect of it. When i posted things on instagram before the event, the feedback i got from other wrestlers and event organizer were very heart-warming to read. And then i saw "X followed you, Y liked your pics"..; Wrestling fans but also content creators, and how i call them : wrestling stars. I mean, i've been following some of them for 10 years, in awe each time they'd post snippet of their fights, wishing to meet them and have a fight... And these guys finally interacted with me and wanted to wrestle with me... How honored i felt. 

Meeting these wrestling stars in flesh '(even though i've been talking to them) was intimidating because, yes they are sexy. And i felt like these ridiculous rockstar fan "oh my god, you're real, can i have a pic with you ? can i touch you ? i saw your last fight, it was so good..." Control yourself Dayim, Control... But they were really easy going guys and i hope i'd have the opportunity to wrestle with them.

On a more general scale, i've been surprised by the chilled but disciplined state of mind that seem to come from the wresstling community. As i said before, i'm doing a lot of gay festival, circuit parties, kinky stuff, and as fun as it is, it's all about "who's the sluttiest, who wear the best outfit, who's the sexiest" Judgment, comparison... And if you're not beautiful enough, muscular enough, instagram-worthy enough, you get looked down. And it's so humiliating.

But  i didn't feel that in the wrestling community, sure they might be some people acting like that, but it doesn't seem to be the main mentality here. It looks really "sport-focused" and not necessarily sexual or kinky. People are mostly here to connect throught fight first, not to get laid.

I really appreciated connecting with wrestlers outside the mat, doing bar crawl on several night. and having really intimate exchange with guys i didn't even know a week ago, And here we are, having drinks, talking about our lives, our future, wrestling experience... I really loved these moments.

I really want to thank all the Berlin crew who worked hard to give us this amazing experience. Thanks to your efforts, peoples like me got introduced to the westling world in the safest way and the more CARING way possible. Really, thank you.